Tuesday, June 28, 2016

art time, garden colors, transformers live, ultrasound flashback + a fractured reflection

June turned into a caleidoscope of counterparting moments - from rainy to sunny, from weekend shorttrip to finally getting the garden in summer shape. I kept taking photos, but before blogging about things, the next theme already took over. Here are some moments of June, in an attempt to catch at least some of the moods this month brought. 

The first photo is: Stuttgart State Galery. I went to see their current exhibition: "Magic of the Modern". The building itself is architectural art. 

From art to nature: we had the first real warm days and evenings of the year - and invited some friends for a bbq. Which also lead to some getting-the-garden-in-nicer-shape, including new flowers, and remembering those garden candles which still was wrapped up, since last year. Now they found their place. 

From nature to... plastic fantasy! This weekend, the Comic Con was on here in Stuttgart, for the first time. I was there, both to visit it for the comic-platform I work for, but also to see it. Pretty amazing. Like walking into a parallel universe. Here's the most unlikely live scene: Transformers and a group of sniper/soldiers, parading through the comic fair, looking like they just fell out of a movie. I also tried a short video, it's online here: Comic Con Moment.

And talking about parallel universes: June also brought the next round of medical "just to make sure"-checkups for me. Which actually are: "check for hints of recurring cancer". With ultrasound, you would get to see it live when the docs would find something. So, rather movie-like, too. And you don't know if it's a good or bad movie until the check is completed. (For me, it was the good movie this time.)
What made me smile, though: walking into the ultrasound room, and seeing the calendar page on the wall. And recognizing the place immediately: 

The calendar page place, I've stood in that spot myself last year. There was this open air exhibition on the Swabian Alb. Created by teens and young adults who faced inner or outer obstacles and now live there in a youth home with social workers, One created this reflection installation. I stood in front of it, and took this fractured image of the world, with some mirror views that also include me. It's from August 2015. I had just finished radiation. My hair was just starting to grow back then. I looked like me and not me. This constellation brought me to this twisted place of things we want to grow back fast, and the ones we hope to never grow back. The things we would like to see, and the ones that we are not sure yet how to face. 

Two connecting links: the lightness of healing (from August 2015, with a first photo of the art walk, and another reflection photo of me), and: my new normal (from earlier this year), 

Thursday, June 23, 2016

foliage emergency exit

The current photo friday theme is: “Foliage”. My contribution comes from an unexpected place: a visit of a modern art exhbition: “De Chiroco – the magic of modernism”. Hadn't remembered that, but it made me smile when I walked in: the inner courtyard of the museum is partly covered with ivy. So I walked into it, and followed the ivy... and arrived here, at this place that looks like the ivy is trying to find the exit:

For more foliage from all kind of places, visit photo friday

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

solstice + this field of possibility

today: solstice
today: the sky moving from rainy to sunny
today: tuesday. Dienstag. mardi.
today: turning the daily calendar, and arriving in ... Mysore. at the palace gate. oh, memories.
today: saying hi to another Dorothee
today: art time.
today: the next check-up. this circuit of fast forward emotions: from fear to pain to relief
today: art time
today: this field of possibility that is life
today: today: Germany vs. North Ireland
today: a t-shirt-warm evening

+  previous todays

Thursday, June 16, 2016

harlequin beach memory, or: to be at the ocean now

on this cold and rainy June day, some sunny ocean memories, both in photos, and in a short story based on a real journey:


He stayed in the car while she went to the hotel. That’s the way they always did it. He staying, she searching.

This time it was easy. The door was locked, but there was a sign saying “chambres à louer” – rooms to rent. Just some minutes later, the receptionist arrived, dropped off by a black van. She handed her the room list. Each room had a different price, apparently calculated by a formula that included the level, size and view.

“Un chambre with a view?” she asked.

“Oui,” the receptionist answered, and opened the drawer with the keys.

Walking up the stairs, she saw a gecko on the ceiling.

Later, after they had been at the beach, it was still there. She pointed at it.

“Gecko,” she said.

“It’s fake,” he answered.

He was probably right, she had to admit it. The gecko hadn’t moved one inch. She tried to remember the French word for gecko, but only got as far as le chien, the dog, and le chat, the cat.

“Je suis un gecko,” she whispered while they let the water rinse the salt and sand from their skin and hair. I am a gecko. Only that she wasn’t. There was no way she could rest idle for hours while hanging upside down on the ceiling. There wasn’t even a way she could rest idle in a room for longer than a sunset, or a book, or a thought.

“Let’s go somewhere for dinner,” she said.

“We could walk along the beach,” he suggested.

But there were still too many people out there, walking over the remains of sand castles, walking along the footsteps of the day. Thus it was in the night, on the way back from a restaurant called Harlequin, that they were alone at the beach.

"The moon," she said and pointed at the reflection on the water that moved in waves. For a while they walked with it, with this reflection. She tried to figure out how the light did it, how it was able to stay by their side.

"It's what light does," he said and painted circles for her in the sand. First the moon. Then the earth. Then the sun, to explain the reflection. The reflection didn’t care about the sketch, though. It simply waited for him to move on, along the beach, along the thin line of water meeting earth under the pressure of air breathed in and out by hundreds of people.

The next morning, while the sun was still a blurry spot in a bowl of fog, she went to the water, to gather the elements she wanted to save from that day:

The sand moon.

The riddle of the traveling pool of light.

And the gecko, who had changed sides while they dined, unfake after all.


Notes + links: 

  • the story was first published in juked magazine 
  • the second and third photo are actually from the very beach of the Harlequin story, but from a later visit there (the place is: Narbonne, France). 
  • inspired by photofriday's current theme: "ocean

Sunday, June 12, 2016

moon / hotel / sky

Two sky moments from friday evening - the first is a lucky shot, it happened due to arriving at a traffic light just when it went red. first i was: okay, another red light. then i looked up and smiled.

The second is the sunset, reflected in a hotel facade:

more skies from everywhere: skywatch friday

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

rain / sun / flower + video moment

The sky here today has a funny humour. It was sunny. I went to get some fresh bread and fruit and such. they also had nice small sunflowers on sale. I bought one. came home. Planted it. and 5 minutes later, it started to rain... in other news, I've been two 2 different short weekend trips in the last 2 weeks, both were work-related, but also really good and interesting. So now it's catching up, and feeling a bit worn out, in a good way. a bit like that rain-sunflower.

And a video: this is from last weekend, the event was at the German "Fussballmuseum" - "soccer museum". We were so lucky with the weather there, and how it all turned out. It was a first time event, and included Youtube channel hosts - that's why now youtube videos go live. This one has a longer scene with me included, starting 8.45. I didn't know I was filmed, and it's kind of cute to see me like this. (And nice, youtube now offers to start the play at a picked time, so just click and it should play from that point)